Have you ever felt alone in a world filled with people?

Right now, that's what I feel... well, maybe not alone. That's probably not the right word exactly.

Sometimes, I feel like the only person who really gives a shit about me is Ben (and thank God for that). I don't want to elaborate but my work life and personal life are apparently colliding...

Often I feel like just stopping... quit being a good person, a good friend, a good family member because in the end where does it get you? No where. At the end of the day, who looks out for you? *YOU* do. Don't get me wrong, I know some of you dear readers are quite friendly and leave positive messages on my blog and for that, I really appreciate it. However, it'd be nice to hear some of those things from the people that interact with me on a daily or near-daily basis.

Anyway.. I don't want to drag you down into the mire of thick, wet mud that I seem to be drowning in lately. I know I won't feel this poorly forever, but I have felt unloved (can't think of a better word for now that truly describes how I feel) for quite some time.

(Again, to reiterate... I don't feel that way about Ben. He is the ONE person that ALWAYS supports me, LOVES ME despite my flaws & faults, and makes me feel good about myself.)

So, sorry dear readers that this entry was a little meloncholy but if I'm not honest about how I feel, then I'm not being my authentic self, right?

Until next time... peace, love & HEALTH!!!