I need to give up the fight. It's been an uphill battle and while I don't want to admit defeat, I must.

I am waving my white flag. I surrender.
I cannot win this no matter what I do. I have tried. I have hoped. I have prayed. Nothing is working.

I cannot make someone else care about me the way that I care about them. I wish that it was different but it just isn't.

And that is why it hurts so much. Then again, I am mostly responsible for this because I have expectations that aren't being met. I shouldn't *expect* for anyone to behave a certain way towards me despite how they may interact with others. Believe me, this is a painful pill to swallow but it's time. I need to grab the largest glass of water, put that pill on the edge of the back of my tongue and just swallow.

Maybe in time it'll be easier to digest and I'll feel full and satisfied in the end.

As Benjamin Franklin once said, "Time is an herb that cures all diseases."

I really hope he's right.

Until next time...peace, love & HEALTH!!!